Vulnerable
Death. A word most of us don't like to think about. When we think of death we tend to think of it as distant, alien. Yet, as circumstances expectantly slap us in the face, we find ourselves examining this thing called death.
A dear family member of mine, is slowly and painfully withering away, succumbing to this entity. It is very hard to see someone barely breathing, the agony expressed in their face. How must it feel when even breathing hurts? How must it feel to want to die? I can't help but think of these things, being that the death of my loved one is so imminent. I think of my death and the way that I will go. I wonder if my death will be in my old age: silver haired, with wrinkles, going peacefully or will it be the result of an accident, sickness, or murder?
Death can come at anytime, and it is this that makes me realize how vulnerable we all are to it. One minute we are here and the next, we are gone. While our close family members will mourn our loss, the rest of the world will go on without us and with time we will be forgotten.

Nikke,
I am so sorry that you are going through this now. We can only hope that when our time comes that we go in peace without pain.
You might think me morbid, but I have been writing letters to my children for years. I write one to each of them about every 6 months. I date them and put them in an envelope for them to read when I am gone. I write about what is going on in my life at that time, how I feel about them and what they are doing in their lives. I tell them how much I love them and I am so happy that GOD gave them to me. Whatever I can think of to put on paper. I want them to live happy lives and know that I will always be a part of their lives.
I know that your mother in law feels your compassion and love and is thankful that you are her daughter. The love she must have for you and you for her. It is overwhelming and heart warming.
I wish you enough...
I think you are so special for giving of your time like you do. You are a child of GOD.
Sorry that might be too much. Just know that what you are doing is appreciated.
Thanks, Ande for your kind words. Truly, your words mean a lot for me at a time like this. Thanks.