I am at a total loss, I have no idea what to write. I would hate to write about morbid things, which is what consumes my life at this point. I find that I need to escape be somewhere else. I find myself in front of my computer staring at the screen for the longest time--accomplishing nothing--watching time tick away.

I am usually narcoleptic, but I have been making friends with insomnia lately. I will sit and watch the death of daylight and the emergence of night. Then, I am witness to  the darkness surrender its reign and slowly give rise to the dawn. A process I have seen many times now, but still captivates me with its beauty.

It is simply amazing, the night, how quiet and still it can be. Every sound is magnified by the backdrop of silence. That fan that is whisper quiet in the day, sounds like a roaring train at night and the sound I make tapping the keys on my keyboard sounds like Morse code. In the distance, I hear the sound of dog barking and the train that is more than a mile away, sounds like it's right outside my door.

In this silence, thoughts take over; it is hard to ignore them. Drowning  them out with media doesn't work, that's for sure. The music I play seems to make a wonderful soundtrack for my thoughts which by now have taken the shape of a mental movie, of sorts.

It's amazing really, the stuff that goes on in my mind. If only I could screen capture it, they way I can on my computer, I would share it with you all. I think you would all laugh or at least be shocked, maybe even shed a tear or two.


With ♥ Always, from my heart to yours.